in praise of doing our best

I have been managing people (not dogs, not cats) for maybe
20 years or so. One of the constant "issues" is that employees
don't feel appreciated. I think I used to feel this way until we
owned our very own business ~ the Great American Dream.
During this venture there was no time for praise, we were usually
just so happy to make it through another day. Soon I learned
to say "good job" to myself and once in awhile to my husband.

My friend Michael has this quotation neatly typed and taped
to his back door so he can see it when he leaves his home:

It's a simple formula; do your best and somebody might like it.

Now isn't that great? No promises of reward, no karma-talk, no
someday-in-heaven ~ no nothing. Somebody MIGHT like it.

I try to approach writing the same way. I just do my best.

herding writers

I come home to about 15 emails from my dear writing group
friends because we are not meeting at Jane's tonight due
to the fact that the photographers from Architectural Digest
are there at her cottage preparing the article for the February
issue. So we are not welcome.

Just in case you think there are lots of people in the writing
group, the 15 emails are from 5 people. So we will meet at
the Great Plotnik's...I think. I'll wait for more emails.

Anyway, the stringing of old writes didn't go so well because I
started reading them, but at least I did make some notes. So
I decided on a couple of old ones from 2002, when we (Giants)
were in the playoffs and then (is it possible?) the World
Series. Those were heady days and nights. Great tension.
Tremendous joy and sorrow. "Dang" as Jeff Kent would say,
that sure was fun. Sort of.

the stringing business

Today I'm going to skip yoga and work on creating a conglomeration
of daily writes from the past 3 years to see how that works. When
Jane and Karen (NYC) do this they produce perfect little masterpieces,
but somehow I don't think mine will be much to brag about.

I will choose the topic "holidays in retail" because I must have 20
little pieces written about this most distressing time of year. The
most amazing things happen to customers ~ anger, frustration, fear,
loathing and constant consternation. I am empathetic, up to a
point, but even I lose it around the 23rd of December when we
are out of product and patience.  One of my coworkers suggested
that just as everyone has to serve in the Israeli army at some point
in their life, we Americans should force every citizen to do a stint
in retail in December, so they know how it feels.

Besides, when I dig up these pieces, maybe it will prepare me for
the battle ahead.

how to waste a morning

A friend at work sent me this damn web site and it has more
than 2000 photos of cats resting/sleeping/curling up in sinks.
I particularly like the orange guys because they remind me of
our dear Uncle Junior who was such a lovable old cat thing.
Cats in Sinks - for all your cat and bathroom needs

Then Baseball Allen tells us that we can Google to find
out about the Red Sox players hitting the Jack Daniels during
the World Series last year.  How come I didn't know that?
So that's next on my list of important chores for my day off.

credit where credit is due

I need to ask my tech friend Michael to put El Greco's blog
in the right hand column over here on my blog. When I emailed
the borrowed walrus photo yesterday Flickr® wouldn't let me
do the link thing, so here it is. A very SF blog and well-written.
I laughed when he got the two Dalys confused during the golf
tournament. That could happen to anyone.
Critical Cloud
At first I didn't like the new museum, but now I do and I love
the top of the tower because you can walk right up to the
glass and see parts of Golden Gate Park and beyond that
have never been seen before, to my knowledge.
It's my Friday night and I'm ready for baseball and more
baseball. Go Cards, so we can extend this series.

thanks walruswong

DSC05614.JPG
Originally uploaded by walruswong.

For this photo from Flickr® because I
didn't get to poke around the new De Young inasmuch as I had to work as usual this weekend. You can read about it in the Critical Cloud and a bunch of other blogs, I'm sure.

What I love is that it was FREE and open all night, but I hear that the lines were never less than 3 hours, even at 2am. Maybe folks exaggerate? We'll go see it when things calm down a bit.

we suffer in paradise

My friend Mary reminds me of that when we get into
these mild depressions. We have so much and too
many have nothing. But sleep was elusive last night
and I dread a full day of work (our busiest day, ugh)
and suddenly there seems to be a lot going on in my
life right now. I like Jane's quote about a writer doesn't
really know what she is thinking until she writes it down.

I try to leave work stuff at work when I walk from BART
to Bernal Heights, but I didn't succeed yesterday.
Change is in the air and I notice that it rained last
night while I was not sleeping. Our sidewalks in SF have
become odoriferous and this weather will help.

My absentee ballot arrived yesterday. Is it right that
I vote against all these propositions simply because I
hate Arnold? Should I maybe at least read them?

I love coming home to the baseball games and I remember
a few years ago when I would request vacation for the
last week in October to watch the world series. We would
rent a cabin in Mendocino or Sea Ranch and wait for the
games to start. One year in Sea Ranch we were fogged in
and then one afternoon the sun came out about 5pm and we
complained that it was ruining the TV viewing. Priorities.

Time is passing too quickly. My friend Jeanmarie's baby
girl is 3 next week. Yesterday (it seems) we worried through
her pregnancy. Next month Kristin's baby girl will be 2 and
that doesn't seem possible either. My friends keep having
these dramatic birthdays, as do my husband and step
children.  When my youngest step child turned completely
grey I was shocked, but didn't present him with a bottle of
Clairol®, which was thoughtful of me.

OK, I feel better here in paradise. Writing always helps.
Today I will act as if I slept last night and when I come home
there will be two exciting baseball games. Everything is
as it should be ~ I think.

as predicted...

Remember when I posted the photo of those long stemmed, bright
pink flowers called Naked Ladies? Back in August, I think. Yes, August
24th. (One of the things I love about this blog business is how fast
and easy it is to look things up here!). Anyway, at the time I mentioned
that a lot of folks will be disappointed when they do a search on
Flickr®, the fabulous multipurpose free photo site when they want
to see some naked ladies.

So last week I checked my "photo stream" and it is pretty funny.
Most of my photos (San Francisco sunrise, Kansas cowboy, the new
museum, etc.) have 4 to 6 hits. But these female flowers have more
than 220. It's nice that there are so many nature lovers out there.

688 San Jose

heaven
Originally uploaded by bkusler.

Hurry, the pumpkin ice cream is only available here at Mitchell's for a very short time, two months max, I think. Of course all their ice cream is so rich and creamy and indescribably delicious. We like to sit on the bench outside and eat our ice cream and watch all the people with huge smiles of anticipation as they enter this little old fashioned ice cream store in San Francisco.

pho' is our friend

On my days off, when the sun is somewhere in Concord or
Walnut Creek, and the fog feels more like a mist or light
rain, we like to go out to Clement Street and have a big bowl
of noodle soup at the Tu' Do restaurant on the corner there
at 11th Avenue. What a bargain for $6.25! You add your own
fresh cilantro and bean sprouts, a squeeze of fresh lime and
slurp away until you're full. For the un-Pho'd few, this is a
Vietnamese soup, usually with slices of rare roast beef, but
of course other meat and sea food is also available. Somehow
they know how to cook the noodles perfectly...you'll see.

So this was our yesterday lunch, followed by a walk up and down
Clement Street with a stop at the chic Goodwill where I had an
open to buy of $6.00, but nothing caught my eye. On to the
Bargain Bank for Halloween candles (2 for $1), keep on truckin'
to comment on the number of new bargain stores out here,
including a restaurant supply store and 20 gazillion plastic items
on both sides of the street. Baskets, boxes, dishes - all priced
even lower than our city's overwhelming fog layer.

aunt rebecca & the snow flower

I didn't post here yesterday and am feeling some of that
writer-type guilt, so I will cover two topics today and hope
I can relax on the rest of my precious day off.

Many years ago, my husband had a most wonderful and
inspirational Aunt Rebecca who was way into her 80's when I
first met her. Last week, when the water heater bid farewell
to this earth, I was forced to de-clutter my office because it
is oh-so conveniently located right next to my desk. Some
papers were water soaked, but the important personal stuff
is fine. Anyway, I came across this small note that I had
jotted down after a conversation with dear Aunt Rebecca.
How to survive a crisis:
1) Be still
2) Have confidence
3) Ask for courage

I am reading Snow Flower and the Secret Fan by Lisa See.
I almost picked up the new Joan Didion book and/or Spalding
Gray's new memorial essays, but even though they are touted
as "life affirming", I just don't feel like doing suicide and double
deaths this week.

My choice was a good one. As is often the case, a customer
recommended this novel to me. In a small village in 19th century
China, women had their own secret language which they painted
on fans and embroidered on handkerchiefs. Female friendship,
history, love, tragedy and joy - I can hardly wait.

which wolf will win?

Wolf
Originally uploaded by HAL9000v2.

(Thanks to my friend Ginger in Kansas for sending me this post.)

An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life.

"A fight is going on inside me," he said to the boy. "It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves.

One is dreadful -- he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and selfishness."

He continued. "The other is good -- he is peace, joy, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, faith, compassion, and trust."

He paused for a moment. "The same fight is going on inside you, my grandson -- inside every other person, too."

The boy thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather. "Which wolf will win?"

The old Cherokee simply replied...

"The one you feed."

pre-party

We are going OUT to a birthday celebration at our friends'
homes (they live next door to each other) tonight. I am
too mature to worry about what I should wear, but what in
God's name shall I wear? I have nothing that even looks
remotely attractive, so I think I'll flop down on my bed and
cry like I did when I was a teenager. No, that's too much
work - maybe something will appear when I start searching
in the closet. Maybe I'll forget about these superficial things
and think about how much fun we'll have seeing everyone.

geena & kyle

I'm liking the new Commander In Chief program on
Tuesday nights with Geena Davis as the President and
Kyle Secor (our old friend from Homicide) as her
husband. It reminds us of West Wing when it was
new and exceptional for a non-HBO program. As
we all know, the best TV shows owe everything to
the writing, and I suppose good acting does help some.

don't call them angels!

This is Fleet Week. I hate Fleet Week. Here is what
Lawrence Ferlinghetti has to say about this noisy
and difficult weekend:

And for another destroyer of  poetry and peace, how
about those killing machines, the Navy's Blue Angels, who
have just carried out their annual attack on the City? But
the poetic life requires Peace not War. The poetic life of
the City, our subjective life, the subjective life of the
individual is constantly under attack  by all the forces of
materialist civilization, by all the forces of our military-
industrial perplex, and we don't need these warplanes
designed to kill and ludicrously misnamed the Blue Angels.
They dive upon our city every year, in a frightening
militaristic and nationalist display of pure male testosterone.
I've seen old Vietnam ladies in Washington Square diving
under the benches! Do we really need to be reminded yearly
how our planes have bombed Third World countries back to
the Stone Age? In San Francisco, of all places, do we really
need "bombs bursting in air to prove our flag is still there"?
What would Saint Francis say?

a small poetic gift

GIFT

A day so happy.
Fog lifted early, I worked in the garden,
Hummingbirds were stopping over honeysuckle flowers.
There was no thing on earth I wanted to possess.
I knew no one worth my envying him,
Whatever evil I had suffered, I forgot.
To think that once I was the same man did not embarrass me.
In my body I felt no pain,
When straightening up, I saw the blue sea and sails.

Czeslaw Milosz

who needs words?

san francisco sunrise
Originally uploaded by the omster.

Well, I do, it seems. We give up so much, those of us who live right in San Francisco. Our friends move to more livable places where they can buy a mansion on 6 acres of land for $500. It takes 1/2 hour to drive 1/2 mile here and then there is no parking. This past summer was one of the worst because the fog settled in about May 15th and didn't leave until the end of September. We tire of the weather experts calling it marine layer - we all know better. The Giants break our hearts year after year and those 49er fans live in the past.

But then, October. Reward time. This is the view from our tiny overpriced home in Bernal Heights this morning as the sun came up over Potrero Hill. I have a million photos like this and I'll take a million more. We have a big picture window in our little back room and we'll spend the day here feeling everso smug and pleased with ourselves while we admire this sparkling wonder of a city.

where's the fire?

Today San Francisco fire chief Joanne Hayes-White was in our store
to buy a book from our guest author, Dennis Smith, and she had
it autographed for Mayor Newsom. The book, San Francisco is
Burning: The Untold Story of the 1906 Earthquake and Fires is
selling well and Chief Hayes-White gave me a friendly wave -
maybe because my husband and I saw her at lunch a few months
ago. I have not mentioned in this blog how very proud I am to live
in a city with a woman fire chief AND our chief of police is Heather
Fong. I wonder if any other major city has two prominent women
in these powerful positions...

writing and friendship

Funny, isn't it? I'm reading a series of questions that my friend
(and teacher) Jane has to ask her doctors about the recently
discovered breast cancer. Smooth and beautifully crafted. I'm
convinced that her writing is helping her through this terrible
time - to organize her thoughts and to keep all of us informed.
And of course her writing friends are right here for her, lined
up and begging to help in any way we can.

My 3 SoCal friends are writers too. Joan is the bird expert in
Santa Barbara and has just published a book. She loaned me the
New Yorker Jonathan Frazen article on bird watching and I read
it on the train home. Excellent, and he deserves the fan letter
she sent him and nice of him to write her back.

Michael is a gifted writer who should be writing to publish. He
is currently taking a typography class and creating an alphabet
using his camera. For instance, a droopy palm tree makes a
perfect "r"...you get the picture, right? I'm hoping he'll take
a writing course as well, to push him a little here.

Now Ginger is my Project. She has volumes of notes from a long
(21 day) Sierra hiking trip that she and her husband took back in
1991. Just the two of them and one donkey named Jennie. After
Ern died, Ginger put the journal, maps and photos away, but this
story needs to be told. Ern wanted her to write about their
arduous trip and she will. So she now has Jane's "just write for 10
minutes every day" rule and my relentless reminders and she
will get all of this on her computer and we'll take it from there.

Four more word birds who have enriched my lucky life.

autogeddon

My beautiful city, nice to be home even though I had to work today.
Sleepy, small Santa Barbara has traffic jams and people don't seem
to walk there the way we do here. Here is what our own Poet Laureate
has to say about cars:

What destroys the poetry of a city?
Automobiles destroy it and they destroy more than the
poetry. All over America, all over Europe in fact, cities and
towns are under assault by the automobile, are being literally
destroyed by the car culture. But cities are gradually learning
that they don't have to let it happen to them. Witness
our beautiful new Embarcadero!

Lawrence Ferlinghetti